Sometimes when I'm all alone and i have time to think.
I think about you and i cry.
Some people think "oh you should be over this"
But then i think to myself you don't know how it feels to be in this pain
or to how hard it is to make it go away.
 My head hurts all the time especially when I'm about to cry.
Its hard to type down these words as tears blur up my eyes.
When i try to speak about you i choke and then i start to cry
I miss the dad from when i was a child that dad i mourn

i still get angry dadbut every day i hope it gets that little bit better and i always pray for you and send you healing xxxx

You will always be in my heart
casting shadows of you
and yet there remains an echo
an eerie silence of loneliness
deafened by dreaded emptiness
in a place you once tread

 

those childhood memories remain
absence the fondness you shared
the gentleness of my brother the gentle giant 
supported by words of compassion
always teaching reaching
no longer can I feel you

though I see you daily
from visions of the past
my soul aches to know
how long does death last

missing you always Edward

Edward  CopeLand '0x

4Years Gone Uncle Edward 4 Years You Havent Been Wiif Me 4years Ive Realli Missed You 4years Hoping You Come Back But You Havent And You Aniit.Its Been So Hard With out You Everi One Misses You Cant waiit Till I See You Again One Daii Cant Waiit To See If You Will Be Waiting For Me But Till Then Uncle Edward I Guees I Gottah Keep You In Ma Heart Your Never Be 4got Number 1 Uncle .....

Love And Miis You Millions ....

Keepp Me Safe Keep The Hole Family Safe...

Watch Over Us ...

And Give Us Signs To Let Us Know Your aryt and  Happi In Heven With Your Dad  And You Brother...  Love & Miiss You Billons Bi The Waii I Miiss Plaii Games With You ..

AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER EVERY ONE OF US WILL GO THROUGH THE TERRIBLE EXPERIENCE OF LOSEING SOMEONE CLOSE TO US  WE WILL STAND BY THE GRAVE HERE SOMEONE SAYING ENCOURAGEING WORDS TRYING TO COMFORT US WHILE WE STAND THERE TRYING TO PAY ATTENSION AND TAKE EVERYTHING IN ITS A VERY HARD THING TO DO PEOPLE TRYING TO SHOW YOU THEY CARE AND SHOW YOU THAT YOUR LOVED,THEN WE ALL WALK AWAY LEAVEING OUR LOVED ONES EARTHLY SHELL BEHIND US RETURNIN HOME AND TRYING TO GET ON WITH LIFE WITHOUT THEM GOD EDWARD,DAD,JIMMY IF YOUS COULD ONLY KNOW THE EMPTY FEELING YOUS LEFT BEHIND WHEN YOUS WENT,WE ARE ALL TRYING TO GET ON WITH LIFE THE BEST WE CAN BUT ITS SO HARD PEOPLE SAY IT GETS EASIER BUT IT DONT I HAVE THIS ACHE IN MY HEART WHICH I KNOW WILL NEVER GO AWAY UNTILL I SEE YOUS AGAIN, THE PAIN IS TO STRONG TO BARE AND I KNOW I FIND MYSELF DOWN MEMORY LANE WHEN WE WERE ALL HAPPY IN OUR OWN WAY I WISH I COULD JUST GO BACK IN TIME JUST TO MAKE SURE YOUS KNEW HOW MUCH I CARED FOR YOUS THEN I FIND MYSELF THINKING WHAT ARE YOUS DOING UP THERE IN THAT BEAUTIFUL PLACE WE CALL HEAVEN ARE YOUS ALL TOGETHER HAVE YOUS HEALED AND ARE YOUS MUCH CLOSER THAN YOUS WERE WHEN YOUS WERE ALIVE AND I HOPE YOUS ARE YOUS NO LONGER FEEL PAIN IN ANYWAY AND I SMILE AND THAT HELPS TAKE AWAY THE STING AM FEELING WHEN MY THOUGHTS GO TO YOUS AND IT HELPS ME FACE ANOTHER DAY AND NIGHT WITHOUT YOUS BUT IT NEVER NEVER TRUELY TAKES AWAY THAT ACHE NO MATTER WHAT I TRY I KNOW YOUS WOULDNT WANT ME FEELING THAT WAY SO I TRY AND PICK MYSELF UP BUT THEN ANOTHER KNOCK COMES AND WE ARE BACK TO THE LOSS AGAIN,I TRY TO FIND A PURPOSE TO GO ON AND I HOPE AM DOING YOUS PROUD,BUT BE KIND TO ME IF AM NOT AS FAR AS YOUS THINK I SHOULD BE AM TRYING HARD I PROMISE YOUS THAT ,EDWARD I MISS YOUR SMILE AND YOUR SILLY LITTLE WAYS JIMMY WELL WHAT CAN I SAY YOU WERE THE JOKER AND YOU COULD ALWAYS BUTTER ME UP AND MAKE ME SMILE ,DAD AS THE YEARS PASSED AND I LEARNED TO FORGIVE YOU I MISS BEING ABLE TO SAY DONT WORRY DAD CAN FIX THAT BECAUES YOU COULD FIX ANYTHING,SO PLEASE MY FAMILY IN HEAVEN SEND ME A SIGN YOU WILL BE WITH US THIS YEAR ITS HARD WHEN I REMEMBER YOUS WILL BE SOENDING CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN THIS YEAR 

Hiiyah Uncle Edward :)

      Its Been A Long Tym Siince I Have Come On Your Siite And Lefted a Candle Of  A Tribute So I Thought Ide Better Leave One To Tell You That I Love You Ldsz And Miiss You Millons ....

Uncle Edward You Not Beiing Here With Us On Christmas Lyk You Used To Be Is Realli Missed But I Hope You Have A Good Christmass In Heaven With Granda And Uncle Jiimmy Tell Them I Sedd Hii And Giive A Kiiss Frm Me

I Made A Liitle Picture 4 You   

Hope You Liike Itt !!

Happi X-Mass In Heaven <3                    

Miissed 4 ALyf Tym ♥

Alwazii In Are Heartz x

I write this here jimmy as a symbol that your spirit will live on. And your wisdom and love lives on in our hearts. God placed you in my life to be my brother for a reason. I thank him for that but i also know you left becaues of the pain you carried all your life which was to much after we lost edward,We remember your silly smile and laugh when we think of it and all the stupid jokes you played on us when i nearly lost my donna you were there to keep us sane when god nearly took her home to be with him,they were dark days werent they jimmy but you came made us laugh and edward rang me becaues he couldnt be there but he wanted me to know he was praying for us at that time. Your face is always with us because your sons look just like you,it never seems it's going to get any easier. I wish you were all still here with me but yous aren't and I am tryin to be strong. I miss yous so much and I love yous so much in our memories we hold what is precious. You are in God's hand, and we love and miss yous. I wish I had told you more often that yous that yous all ment the world to me.I know you are in a better place & have peace & happiness finally. I only want you back on earth because of my pain and i know thats just me being selfish. I am happy for you that you are in the arms of God,but the pain of loseing yous is something we have to learn to live with on a daily bases its hard you know what i mean i know yous do,life will never be the same without yous,I still cant believe that this happened to you jimmy! You were a good person but made some bad choices in your life but we all do that dont we bro, you will never be replaced. You are forgiven for leaveing us here it will take awhile for your children to be able to say that but i know deep in there hearts they have done it already, and not a day has gone by that I dont think about you edward and dad. I cant wait until the day that I see yous all again but until that day I will be smiling for you and doing my best to keep your memory alive. Keep rockin jimmy! I love you beyond words...

your sister lisa xxx

Lisa...what can I say.   I am so sorry for the loss of ur loved ones.   I will never understand  God's plans.  I truly believe that when we are born God already knows the time/hour/ & way we will die.  I understand...mygrandfather commited suicide 7 months after my Dad died at the age of 53.  Grief is so hard.  I lost my son at the age of 17, I will never understand God's plan.  One day the veil will be lifted and we will see it was our loved ones who was o.k.  It's us that's not.  I am so sorry for the pain you have to endure again and again.   Just know that you are in my thoughts  and prayers and please know that I am asking God to comfort you and give you some understanding that is so hard to understand for us humans.  Lifting you in prayer my friend.  God Bless.

HUGS...HUGS...HUGS

Lisa